When Peyton was just born I remember being extremely overwhelmed. Tired, sore from the C-Section and just overly worried that something bad would happen. I remember talking to one of best friends, Cari and to this day I remember what she told me. You will never stop worrying. You worried when you were carrying her, now you worry about all the infant worries, then it moves on to toddler concerns, then it just keeps going. So pray hard and get used to it, because it never goes away. She probably doesn't even remember this conversation (which took place in the middle of the night b/c she had a infant too at the time), but it stuck with me. And I try to remind myself of it every time I worry about something I can't control with Peyton, and I try to push those crazy worry thoughts out of my mind.
On mother's day you read all these nice posts to peoples mom's and even to the moms of "fur babies" etc... I remember before I had Peyton as an aunt, fur mommy, and coach I thought I really understood what a mother's love was. After all I have a great mother and I know she loves me. But the truth is there is nothing like it. There are all these other very important, very loving relationships in your life and I don't mean to diminish any of them.b/c they are very important but the love you feel for your kids is different. The power of it and the responsibility you feel from it is unlike any other relationship a woman can have.
So now the part I have been thinking about. How this works with two? I am not sure how you divide that up... although I hear it doesn't work that way. Do you just worry twice as much? How does your heart and brain not burst? All of this will be answered for me soon enough, but in the mean time I will try to listen to Cari and remember that worrying won't stop and I really need to pray about it!
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